Summer Days

Looking back when I was intimately connected with God, I'm jealous of my past. There's so much I have to get right to get anywhere in life, and He knows I know it. First off, I have to forgive my dad. If you don't know, I pretty much detest him and everything he's involved in. I just keep praying that He will teach me how to forgive, not just to say the words which would be hard enough, but to truly forgive him. I need to be in the Word too. Whenever I've read the Bible, it's always changed my life in one way or another in amazing ways, so why wouldn't I? Good question. I have to give everything...my hopes, my dreams, my pain, my regrets, my love, my heart...only to Him. I have to humble myself and accept that He knows a whole lot more about what I need than I do. I just always try to keep in total control of my life...look where that's got me...this summer could be what defines the rest of my life or just cement my life in it's current direction...God help me