A blog dedicated to the daily life of a man named Jude aka Bissell and his thoughts on anything under the Sun.

Friday, January 27, 2006

New Hope

Right when you think that there is no hope or beauty in this world Christ knocks you on your rear. This J-term I have found something to live for, something to put it all on the line for. I've received exactly what I've needed for all these years...Hope. I feel alive. I have finally come back into that state of bliss with my Christ. I feel His eternal love like a cozy fireplace after coming in from the frigid cold. Has anything changed? I have seen the face of beauty and I hear the beautiful voice of Jesus all day. We talk again! Do you have any idea how long I've longed to be here again?!? Praise God. In Astronomy (however boring the profs are) I have been able to see the awe inspiring Creation He has carefully laid out for us to see the pure genius and creativity that cannot be seen anywhere else. And when I thought all was lost and I was just destined to be alone and to never feel loved again, I get a glimpse of hope. Christ has brought the most beautiful woman I've ever seen right into my life. She's absolutely perfect and flawed in all the best ways. Whenever I'm around her I feel alive. I can just see God laughing when I ask him if I can see her but one more time during the day to which He indulges His son. I just have a feeling that this has something much more behind it all. I will leave that moment I finally cowboy up and ask her out up to God, I'm sure He can arrange it all much better than I ever could. Here's to you Big Guy ;)