Here

The title is about all I can say right about now. I'm here. Thursday night went really well, although I wasn't feeling too hot before the concert since my cold was in full force that day. There were a couple lulls in the action backstage and a lot of people she didn't know at all that I talked with, but you'll have that I suppose. One of the guys did a short sermon before the show on how all we have is hope in Jesus and then later on in the show the lead singer talked about how we all have our scars (some deeper than others) but that in the end He is always there and is our only hope. I really really needed to hear that. But this weekend hasn't been what I wished with the 25 10-13 year olds we had on the floor for BASSYCS and then feeling like I wasn't even wanted to be seen by Emily last night. Then having Exit 59's church service moved to Muncie (which I spaced) and showing up to a locked church. Is it ever God's Will that you miss church? But I came back and listened to a Kingsway sermon off the web. I just wish I could talk to someone...really talk. I don't want to fake it anymore. I just wish I knew what to do...where to go...what to say. What're the magic words to unlock my life?