A blog dedicated to the daily life of a man named Jude aka Bissell and his thoughts on anything under the Sun.

Sunday, May 15, 2005

My Reply

I trust you had a good time at St Elmo's. I understand that you were upset and that is OK. But, you should not have said what you did at the end. You owe me an apology. Billy and I have been going for counseling for over two years now. She and her family go to church on a regular basic. She has gone with me and Grandma and Grandpa Clark twice to Plainfield Christian. She does come up and stay when it is necessary, but we have decided to be celibate. Since, you have not meet her or know anything about her, it is not fair to make that kind of judgement. I did behaviors in the past that were bad, I own up to them and have ask for God's and your forgiveness, but I have not done any of those things for years now. I have never used that kind of language and would like for my sons to never use those words concerning any woman. [referring to my calling Billy a "slut"] Remember, that we are all sinners in the sight of God and only his grace makes us worthy. And in his eyes we are all his children until Judgement. He judges the heart, not us. Think about this and let me know. I love you and am very proud of what you are doing at Taylor. Dad
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Dad,
After thinking it over I was wrong afterall. I have owned you an apology ever since the beginning. Here it goes:
I'm sorry for...the adultery, the pain and disgrace you feel every time your mother says "You're acting like your father", all the times you've tried to forgive me but I've gone and brought my sin out again in front of you just enough to bring back that horrible day when you found out about my sin, never asking for forgiveness but always comparing myself to your mother's sin when she stood in front of me and begged for forgiveness and reconciliation, bringing pornography and alcohol into the home, never encouraging your children to worship the Lord on Sundays, blantantly disobeying the Word of God in nearly every teaching on marraige and adultery, teaching your children to conduct "shady" business practices again demonstrating a lack of Christian morality, all the tracks of pornography and sexual perversion I've left on the computer for you to find and been forced for the sake of the marraige to ignore praying for me to turn from my ways, how I continue in my sin while claiming to be under the Grace of Jesus Christ (contradictory to Hebrews 6), and finally for being disgrace on your name by "dating" a prostitute and having a second family to give you a family legacy of sin. It's just too bad it's not you saying this...

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